At the Somerville Porchfest, May 19

If there was a conspiracy, it sure was a good one. The weather today in Boston was as close to perfect as we could hope for.  Days like this can be counted on one hand, but they may also be the reason why some of us stay in this region of the country despite the cold, the snow, the hot and humid summers.  Days like this when winter is making a quiet retreat and the ferocious heat of summer has not settled in. The city and all its extensions are bathed in clear, generous light; the wind is tender but present; the plants and trees are still moist from more than three days of rain.

The day is a slow celeberation of renewed life, and on a day like this where better to be than Somerville?  Its hills and descents, its narrow, one-way streets, its animated public spaces, but most of all its inhabitants who are scattered today all over the town for the yearly Porch Fest.  The whole town is out, and Summit Ave is one of the locations where Porch Fest is taking place.  There are others, but we are here, in this narrow, joyous space of music and togetherness.  It’s also where Little Rose–our friend, teacher, and our guide in the intricacies of muscle and bone, jazz and soul– and the Boston Allstars are playing and dancing and singing the afternoon away. But mostly playing, which this afternoon must be the passtime of the gods!

Rose and her people are the salt of the earth, the reason to come out to Somerville although we know, we foresee, getting lost in the maze of the streets.  But we soldier on until we hear the sweet music and the noise, find a place to park, and join the crowd.  The singing is sweet, the dancing is terrific, and the street is out in full force–the children selling lemonade, a young man in an orange shirt dancing with his son, and old couple swaying in the wind and the music–”Dance Me to The End of Love,” then “Nature Boy,” then “Ain’t She Sweet,”  and more, as the tap dancing intensifies, the audience joins in with arms stretched up.

Afternoons like this are fun–and that’s not a word I use often, but here, in this context, it is the only word worth mentioning: our senses alive, our arms entwined, and our bodies moving.  And if that’s not possible, then simply being there, in the presence of this paradise weather, on this street bursting with spring energy.

Oh sweet, spontaneous earth, wrote e.e. cummings.  He was a resident of Cambridge, but I have a suspicion that he was a secret lover of Somerville, of its vernacular beauty of many colors and languages, shades and light, paths and dead ends!

Thank you, Little Rose and the Boston Allstars–Theo Powers, Roberto Cassan, The Poet Lourie, Justin Meyer, Sir Cecil Rednullac.  The dancers: Josh Hilberman, Rosalind Chaplin, Jeff Yang.

Photos: Alvart Badalian

And what better way to say goodbye to this quirky, zany afternoon than with a mural we happened upon as we were driving away, the buzz still in our ears, the lift still in our toes!

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Tips on Happiness I: what to throw out, what to keep

Tips on Happiness: A Rant and a Celebration in Several Parts

I was waiting for the journal prescription–keep a journal, they all say it–and it came in Dr. Andrew Weil’s third tip for achieving happiness.  (It’s on MSNBC, under “Happiness Tips with Andrew Weil.”) The journal is the mother of all prescriptions for chronic conditions–overweight, underweight, depression, sciatica, bad stomach, backache.  Keep a journal, they say, so you can know the “triggers.”  Dr. Weil turns the standard prescription around, and urges us to keep a journal and write down the names of all the people who help us achieve contentment, and in the doing express our gratitude for their presence in our lives. But, let’s face it, if you turn the act of gratitude into a little, well-lubricated machine, it’s not gratitude anymore, is it, Mr. Spontaneous Happiness?

Now I have nothing against Dr. Weil; I have consulted his website from time to time, though less so in recent years.  There is good material there, and useful. I also agree with him that happiness is a ruse, a mirage, a manufactured destination.  But, truth be told, he should stick to his vitamin regimen and his promotion of “healthy living” though he has written a book, Spontaneous Happiness, the irony of whose title and its book-length format should not be lost on anyone!  I say this because despite his integrative approach to health, his tips for happiness (or that other thing which he says is better than happiness) are based on the medical/psychological model.

Paris raining, Centre Pompidou

The first thing to do is discard that model–the doctors, the integrative medicine persons, and the psychologists and quasi-psychologists–you know those types who have a default half-smile plastered on their face, an all-knowing glow in their eyes!  Turn off PBS when another man or woman from the “helping professions” stands in front of an audience, in that serene state of being, and doles out the wisdom of the ages about brain plasticity, or good sex after seventy, or healthy interpresonal relations.  Even the tai chi and yoga contigent have that all-knowing look.  You’ll be spending a lot of time turning off the television set, I tell you, because the network seems to live on the abundance of that type of public personality whose aims are noble, whose teachings are spawned by some miraculous moment of revelation.  Much of it is hogwash, of course, so turn off the television set or the radio; discard the brochure.

Once you exiled those types out of your life, once you’ve walked away from the health paradigm–physical and psychological– embrace (ah, that word!!! It’s also always there, but in its old, pre-helping profession days, it was a good word, for romantic situations) literature as your teacher and intimate.  You can add philosophy, too, the sister of literature. Philosophy of the East and the West, though you’re slipping into the fashionable territory again, because with those smiling, serene people, the Dalai Lama always slips in somehow, though I cannot remember one sentence of his wisdom.  And if you want to keep a journal, which is not a bad idea, keep one in which you write down, by hand, quotations which strike you as poignant, or resonant, or opaque but interesting, or simply outrageous and irreverant.

I am no expert on happiness, far from it.  Often, I get more mileage out of my melancholy than my moment of joy, but  I have recorded over the years, from literature, or from individuals associated with literature, or from everyday situations which are tinged with something literary, all of deep relevance or consequence or so I thought then.  As these words and figures from literature–literate and vernacular, of the book and the street–have become intimates, they have also lost some of their distinctiveness perhaps, changed by and adapted to the crises or ruminations of the days.  Words on a page, the voice of someone from the past–sullied, weathered but infinitely alive.

[Cat on a Paris roof/Photo:@csdickey on Twitter]

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From the image archives: Alhambra, Avingnon, MA north shore

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Alhambra: The Generalife. Photo:Tamar Salibian

Avignon Festival 2011

The MA north shore from a Sessna Plane

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Breaking Bread: Isabelle’s offerings at Marché Malakoff, Paris

It’s been a while since I put up a post about food. There are reasons for this silence, serious reasons which have nothing to do with an aging stomach and more with our obsession with food–its excess but also its deprivations, its pleasures but also its harmful effects. Obsession and denial are two sides of the same coin, so it makes no difference what we say about food, and all of us say mostly the same thing, the locally grown groupies included.

But I had to break my self-imposed silence this morning, when I received these lovely pictures from my friend Ariadne, who lives and buys food and cooks in Paris.  She was at our favorite marché, the Malakoff, and she sent some pictures from Isabelle’s stand.  So, here are the pictures and a couple of very, very simple recipes–with apologies to my friend, who is a much more accomplished and erudite cook than I could ever be! The recipes are for fennel salad (the way the Florentines make it, I am told) and Marcella Hazan’s fried zucchini.

Zucchini recipe:  Make a batter with cold water and flour; the consistency should not be soupy; it should stick to the zucchini, but lightly.  Cut the zucchini in oval-shaped pieces of half an inch thickness.  Dip in the batter, fry lightly in vegetable oil until the flour mixture begins to turn golden.  Remove onto paper towels.  Consume with red pepper paste or garlic paste.

Fennel salad:  Remove the green part of the fennel.  (Put it in a cup and use it to decorate your kitchen table.)  Slice the fennel very, very thin. You may need one of those little gizmos that do the trick and turn the beautiful herb into a weave of twirl and curl.  Then,mix fresh lemon juice and olive oil and pour it on the fennel.  That’s it.  It is a heavenly salad, alone or in the company of fish or couscous.

And because the last word should be Isabelle’s, here’s another picture of her world.

But wait, there’s a recipe for sauted green beans with onions and potatoes!  Next time!

[Merci beaucoups, Ariadne et Isabelle!]

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From the Archives: Meditations on the pomegranate

Originally Posted on December 5, 2010

There it was, in the middle of the grocery store (a regular one, mind you, and not Whole Foods), with a huge sign announcing its discounted price, in one of these cardboard boxes with the fruits all stacked one on top of the other.  There it was, sitting modestly between the three dozen varieties of apples, and the resigned, flaccid bags of grapes. There it was–ready and eager, and not a single shopper approaching it, touching it, or even looking at it for all the beauty of its glistening red skin, its sensuous navel.

No, no one, not even I, for whom pomegranates were an occasion for supreme joy when I was growing up.  There was a season for the pomegranate (as there were for all sorts of vegetables and fruits) in my part of the world, and we waited impatiently for its arrival at the vegetable market.  And then some–until the price came down.  My mother would buy three or four of the strange, mysterious fruit.  That very evening, we would sit around and patiently, slowly–almost devotionally–we would begin the ritual. With a tiny knife, my mother or grandmother would make a thin line from the navel to the base of the fruit, and then cradling the pomegranate with both hands, would slowly tear the thing into two.

That was always the big moment, when the two halves of the fruit were suddenly ruptured revealing an intricate interior of honeycombed seeds.  Sometimes, the fruit would begin to bleed from the violence it had been subjected to. Perhaps it was the fleeting violence which made that moment so mysterious, so full of apprehension, but also anticipated joy.

Then we would divide the two halves into smaller portions.  We would take out one or two seeds at a time, making sure that the white membrane was detached from the seed, and that the seed was not discolored.  Then, we would  place the seeds from a fruit or two in small bowls, sprinkle it with sugar.

The taste was like nothing else in the world. Pungent and sweet, it would linger on for a while afterward.  I always swallowed the seeds, to my grandmother’s consternation, but it did not matter.  It was a small sacrifice to pay for such a ritual which engaged the senses so subtly but so completely, and with such enduring power.

That was then. But today, at my local grocery store, I was as oblivious as the next shopper, except for the guilt I felt afterward when I was driving home–the guilt of passage, the guilt of treachery perhaps, the guilt which fuels these words.

But truth be told, what have we done to the pomegranate, this most strange, this most marginal of all fruits? The assault has been two-pronged, and well-intentioned on both counts: an artistic assault and a commercial one. Between them, they have squeezed the pomegranate dry, sucked the mystery and energy out of it, used it in so many contexts and justifications that it has become a hollow shell, a word with no resonance, no texture. (In Arabic, the word for pomegranate is rumman; in Armenian it is noor–the very words carrying its otherness, searing its memory in my mind. Her cheeks are like rummans, the saying goes in Arabic.)

What have we done? On the artistic front, we Armenians have to share the blame though most of the shoppers at my local grocery store would not even be able to pronounce the word Armenian.  When the great Soviet film-maker Sergei Paradjanov made his Nran Gooyne (The Color of Pomegranates), the fruit entered our lexicon of hushed, exiled usage.  We watched the film with bated breath, our eyes unable to take in the saturation of the images which the film displayed. There was that primal scene of the pomegranate bleeding onto a white background, and the fabric slowly absorbing the redness.  What to make of that image?  How to understand its titular significance in the context of the film’s ostensible subject, the life of  Sayat Nova, the Bard of the Caucasus.

Books and articles have been written on this question, and a blog is not the place for this discussion, except for one, clear fact:  It was the opacity, beauty and complexity of the image (both in the title and in the film itself) which sustained and encouraged its endless variations. We, as a community, latched on to it like there was no tomorrow, and for decades used it and abused it, stretching its  delicate meaning thin, but also simplifying it beyond recognition.  There it was, the name of a record label.  There it was again, the inspiration for post cards. There it was the name of a film festival.  There it was as a poster. There it was as small mementos which friends brought back from Armenia (crude not in a studied way, but simply crude, put together in haste.)  There was a time when everywhere you turned, you saw a pomegranate. But none of it seemed real, authentic, doing justice to Paradjanov’s usage and to the fruit itself.  None of it.

When the health food industry’s claws reached the tender seeds of the pomegranate, we Armenians were too happy to oblige.  We have a genetic predisposition to being “the first,” as the cultural anthropologist Levon Abrahamian has noted: the first Christian nation, the first genocide of the twentieth century (not really), the first growers of apricots, the first shoe-wearers, and so on.  We were proud and happy, and we walked into health food stores with added dignity and national pride. It was not an apple that Eve gave her man, but a pomegranate, we proclaimed, and believed our words.  We were the growers of the pomegranate, the cultivators of its theraputic powers.  And the variations kept multiplying (as they did in the 1980s with yogurt), and soon there was the juice and the juice of the juice, and the smoothie, and the ice cream, and on and on like this.  (I read somewhere recently an article on how to open the pomegranate, how to eat it! I saw an ad for the juice, foregrounded by the image of and man and a woman in a vigorous, pre-coital embrace. I was livid.)

The promoters knew next to nothing about our civilization much the less about Paradjanov’s film, and they are not expected to know.  But we are. John Berger writes that sometimes to be naive is to be an accomplice.  In the case of the pomegranate, to be enthusiastic was to be an accomplice.

Before long, the circle was complete, the noose tight.  Our national symbol (yes, after a while many were talking about the pomegranate as our national symbol–all the seeds separate but united, and such drivel) had become an international nutritional sensation. Now if we could just turn that into some public relation campaign for our national cause, we’d be all set!  Because, let’s face it, if it cannot be turned into a public relations tool, it’s days are limited.

But the market operates on surplus, on making things obsolete and irrelevant while making us crave more of what we cannot have.  And so too with the magical, complicated pomegranate.  We’ve run out of aesthetic extensions; we’ve run out of milking the poor fruit, and the market has turned to other commodities.  And so the pomegranate sits in the grocery store, its skin having lost some of the past’s vibrant sheen, its navel turned sideways.  And we pass by it these days, never giving it a second look, the good consumers that we are.

But in my memory, the pomegranate as metaphor will always be the emblem of the moment–the moment I first saw the image on the screen, in that darkened basement, before the petitions for Paradjanov’s release from prison; the tomes of commentaries and conferences (some of them pretty bad, pretty narrow, chauvenistic even); the volumes of books in several languages; the collapse of the Soviet Union; Paradjanov’s uneasy entry into the world; then his slow, painful death; the mass funeral and the outpouring of national grief; the construction of the luminous Paradjanov House-Museum in Yerevan; and so on and on.

But before all this, the moment when we are seated around the table: the fruit cracks, bleeds, revealing something near-perfect, something utterly new each time but also something ruptured, broken, dispersed, scattered, bittersweet.

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April 24: Armenian National Day of Mourning

Նիկողոս Սարաֆեան։ Անձկութիւն

Ara Güler, Aphrodisias/Photocredit:visuramagazine.com

Կարօտը չէր ետիս ձգած քաղաքիս
Ու սէրը չէր ծովին, հովին. վախը չէր
Անծանօթին, որ կը ճզմէր իմ հոգիս,
Ափի մը դէմ երբ կանգ կ՛առնէր նաւը մեր։

Այլ երթալու մեծ սարսուռին պակասն էր
Որ կ՛ընէր զիս յանկարծ թշուառ, կը բանար
Մէջս պարապ մ՛երբ նոր երկրին առջեւ՝ մեր
Նաւուն խարիսխը կը քակուէր յամրաբար։

Արկածներու սպառնալիքն էր այդ պերճ
Որ կը պակսէր. հասնելու ցաւն էր, նման
Անոր, որ լեռն իր ոտքին տալէ վերջ,
Տխուր՝ կ՛առնէ վերադարձի իր ճամբան։

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ԱՐԴԻ ՀԱՅ ԳՐԱԿԱՆՈՒԹԻՒՆ (Ժողովածու), Ա. Հատոր, Արտասահմանի Գրողներ, ՀԱՅ ԳՐԱԳԷՏՆԵՐՈՒ ԲԱՐԵԿԱՄՆԵՐ Մատենաշար 11, Փարիզ 1939.

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Anxiety

Not the yearning for a city left behind,
nor the love of the seas and the winds,
it was not the fear of the
unknown
that held my heart in its grip
each time the ship came to stop
facing a port.

No, –but the absence of the anguish
of the mighty shudder of departing
that plunged me of a sudden in misery,
that emptied me of myself
each time I came to face a new land,
while the anchor rumbled slowly into the sea.

It was the threat that seemed amiss,
the menace of adventures aglow with joy,
it was the pain of arriving,
like the climber having reached the top.
has to return and walk back,
crying in his heart.

Translated by Vahé Oshagan

[Courtesy of Armenian Poetry Project.  Thanks Lola, Tina!]

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Small Joys: Boston Garden on a Grey Day

Even on a grey day such as today, Boston Garden is cloacked in a myterious, dark, and illusive beauty. A few days ago the weather was warm, spring-like, a ruse.  By today, things had changed; it was cold again.  But we ventured downtown anyway, hoping to catch some of the promise of what’s to come, if not the actual thing itself.

From Charles Street, we walked around the Garden to Park Street, a warm coffee and lots of pastry (it was time to break our Lent fast), and then into the Garden, meandering and talking, books and travel mainly, new books she had bought, among them The French Leiutenant’s Woman by John Fowles (one of my Books-to-Live-and-Love-by), and my current read, Abraham Verghese’s Cutting for Stone. 

And then the conversation turned to travel, and why we love it so much, my niece and I, and the cities we love and the ones (some very close to Boston) which we don’t care much about.  Cities we love–they give us back something;  they give us back ourselves but in new shapes and forms and possibilities. For what are we if not several people, doing battle amongst our various selves?

Cities we love, like Boston, most of the time.  On a day like this, crisp and dark and full of disillusionment but also so alive with people–all ages, all backgrounds, all ethnicities, all eccentricities, including the grunge man in black with bare feet skipping across the concrte, or the young woman in heels so high you’d think she is talking to God on this holy day, or the dishevelled old man, his eyes mad with madness, his mouth incapable of speech.  And in the midst of all that, the little conversations across the generations.

A sweet afternoon, in the grey of our city, in the eclipse of the sun, in the promise of what is surely to come in all its glory soon, very soon. It’s just a matter of time, really. It always is.~~

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